and she swears there's nothing wrong 
    yet i hear her play that same old song
    left a note and said im sorry i 
    had a bad day again - fuel


and i skip over the water wrecking what's underneath 
and i run far away from everything else 
and my hair gets tossed and tangled and chokes me
from the inside out 
and i am turned upside down as the air escapes my lungs
i am drowning

   i am falling
   i am fading
   i have lost it all
   help me to breathe - boa 

and i have songs in my head that pertain to my day and how i try 
to be helpful and end up just being in the way
 but i feel like 
the air is layer upon layer
enclosing me until i cannot escape

i will wake up tomorrow and not mention it to anyone
they will all stare 
who is that
what does she want
who is she? 
the sun is setting on the hill people stare like 
lines and lines of blades

what do they want

what does anyone want but a touch of the sunshine
but it rains and it drenches and it fills every pore
until life is choked out 

and you fall and you fall and your back is pressing against
the sand and where are the people who care about you 
but in the dune beside you
as their noses clog with their own misery

and they peter out and die own their own and you 
lay there

and wonder what happened to everything you once knew

you need more rain more rain more rain
because all sun all the time will dry you out

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